Emotional overload

Yesterday morning I finished (Un)qualified by Steven Furtick. I instantly wanted to go to the book store and buy another book and start reading it. BUT I have only 1,000 books here in my house that I can read, soooooo getting a new book isn't smart. I bought this book at Ollie's and I was so excited to start reading it.

I finished watching Elevation's experience and I decided that I was going to read. I went to pick up the book and got side tracked by my laptop, what a time suck. I glanced through facebook, another time suck. And saw something that completely slammed me to a halt. Instantly, my attitude changed. I was sadmad. (Thank you Dreamworks, Home) I had just finished listening to a sermon for the second time, 5 pages of notes, and lots to think about and BOOM instant sadmad.

I put down my book on the unholy trilogy and picked up Unglued by Lysa TerKeurst. (From (Un)qualified to Unglued. Notice a theme? God is teaching me that He can use me and my brokenness even if I don't think He is able/willing to.) On a normal day I'm an emotional person. God wired me that way, I've come to accept it. After having a child, I'm a wreck. Stupid commercials kill me to the point where I'm covered in tears. Watching a new animated film, FORGET IT! I've become an emotional ball of suck.

I'm learning to have imperfect progress in my emotional journey. It's progress that continues after I finish this book, or so I hope it does. Lysa gives multiple of examples of situations that she completely cracks under the pressure. Like her, I am a stuffer. I collect moments then explode over small things. I can sit in my living room for months and then all of a sudden, Justin will leave a cup on the table before he goes to bed and I wake up and instantly become a force of not so niceness.

"It's okay to have setbacks and the need for do-overs. It's okay to draw a line in the sand and start over again - and again. Just make sure you're moving the line forward. Move forward. Take baby steps, but at least take steps that keep you from being stuck. Then changes will come. And it will be good." (Page 14-15)

Lysa starts off by telling us that we were made to have emotions. God gave me emotions so I could experience life, not destroy it. I find that quote to be perfection. Something I totally needed to hear. Currently my emotions are destroying my own life. They are controlling my day. I'm so excited that I'm going to be learning how God reveals how emotions can work for us instead of against us. It's a terrifying life when your emotions work against you and you become completely unstable in your emotions.

That's just an overview of chapter 1 and I can't wait to start working on more. Are you too an emotional person? Do you feel like your life is controlled by your emotional outbreaks? I highly recommend this book. It's only the 4th one I've started this year. Just know that if you are an emotional person who reacts out of an emotionally broken state, you aren't alone. There are many people just like you who go through this!