Anger, grief, laughter

I've recently discovered that I am going through the "stages of grief", not in the right order. But I am experiencing some 'loss' in my life. The stages are Denial - Check, Anger - Check, Bargaining - Check, Depression - Check, and Acceptance - were getting there. Anyway, I went Denial, Bargaining, Depression, Anger, now working on acceptance.

This morning I hit anger like a brick wall going 75 in a car. I woke up, fed Joseph, showered, and boom. Anger raged within me. I have had the best weekend. I spent yesterday without reception at my father in laws house in West Virginia. Today I am going out with my husband to do lots of special things. And yet I still allowed anger to control me.

I know we aren't supposed to do that but were human, were flawed. I sat on the bed looking at Joseph and couldn't believe that I was angry over something so juvenile and childish, but I still was filled with it. Not just rage but hurt. I began to cry and get angry with God. I told him that I was so mad that I would start throwing tablets like Moses. (I read the story of Moses to Joseph last night so it was fresh in my mind.)

When I talk to God, He jokes with me. He reminded me that I used to say that I was so mad that I would toss temple tables. He flashed this picture before me. I instantly started laughing and couldn't contain it.

I started looking for a picture of Moses throwing down the tablets and came across this nugget of joy.

So if your morning is filled with rage, anger, sorrow, pain, neglect, bitterness, or sadness. Remember God is there. He will find a way to turn your bad to good. Obviously now I'm in a better mood as I continue to get ready for my day. Hopefully you are too. And if not, just look up bible stories and legos and see if that doesn't make you giggle snort!