Cast Away (Becoming)

No this doesn't have anything to do with the blockbuster hit Cast Away with Tom Hanks. I can't get into that movie, at all. Not sure why but all I can do is make fun of him yelling at wilson. But that's another conversation for another day. As 30% or more of you have quit reading because I don't like movie.

I'm a glutton. I can admit it. I eat when I'm sad. I eat when I'm happy. I eat when I'm bored. I even joked yesterday that I eat when I breathe. It's evident by my weight. But what has gotten me the most recently is the depression. I guess a lot of it has to do with my weight and things going on around me that usually bring me joy. 

Last year I went through a very tough situation. It was one of those times I wanted to abandon ship on everyone I knew. Just disappear and change my number and not make contact anymore. Some people might have wished I would have. God wouldn't let me. He wanted me to stay and fight. The longer it went on, the more upset I got. Until finally I said, "ENOUGH!" I realized that I didn't have to worry about it anymore. I didn't have to carry it daily and allow it to make me depressed or frustrated. I told God that he had to fix it because I was done. (which is something I say a lot. I'm done)

I threw it at his feet and walked away. I decided that I was going to keep doing what I was doing and let the problem fix itself. Now, I understand that some situations you can't just throw at God and make him fix. Bills still have to be paid, cars still have to be worked on, you still have to work to obtain money. BUT the stress that you carry with you in your circumstances doesn't have to be carried daily.

The problem didn't get fixed instantly and it took a LONG time to sort out. But I didn't have to worry about the stress and anxiety because I told God that he had to do what only he could do. I was thinking the other day that the best thing for me is when I don't feel in control. When I know that I can't do anything about it and the only person who can fix it is God. It's scary, don't get me wrong. Terrifying. The first few times I did it, I was a mess. But I quickly found out that letting go of those feelings and clinging to peace was better. 

Never will he leave me nor forsake me. And i know that's truth because it's scripture. Whatever it is today that is controlling you and causing you anxiety, cast it on God and let him give you peace. It may not happen over night, or in an instant. BUT IT WILL HAPPEN! Just constant acknowledge that he is in control and wants to take that anxious feeling and allow him to give you peace. Have a great day.