God doesn't take me by surprise often. It's not because I'm wiser and just know that His ways are amazing. It's just a rare thing for me to be rendered speechless. (As you can imagine is EXTREMELY difficult) This morning I was struck in awe of God and how He writes our stories. I took a glimpse in my rearview mirror. Before I tell you what I saw and how speechless I was, let me tell you something a little more profound.
A lot of times we spend time focusing on our past and the things we have done. I have heard the quote, "Don't look towards your past or you'll trip on your future." Maybe it's because it's something I've said to myself a thousand times. I don't want to continue to focus on who I was because I'm not who I was. I'm not the same girl I was 10 years ago, or 4 years ago, or last month, or last night for that matter. I'm constantly trying to improve or move forward. Trust me, right now I'm hung up on some things I need to just let go and move on from. Easier said than done.
I don't keep my focus in my rearview because of the fact that I might wreck my car. When we glance in our rearview, for those of us who still use that, we just peek. It's not a long gaze or constant stare. A quick glimpse. To see what's behind us as we keep moving forward. So check this out.
8 years ago - preparing for my wedding day.
6 years ago - healing from a medical condition that the doctors couldn't fix.
3 years ago - giving away a puppy and preparing for Joseph.
2 years ago - planning my sons first birthday party.
Today - planning a photo shoot with my toddler.
Why would these events render me speechless? When I got married, I had no idea what was going to happen. Our future was bright until we had to deal with some medical issues on my side that were potentially going to keep me from having kids. 2 years we battled this issue, not understanding what the future held for us as far as kids. I was sitting in the congregation of my churches 10-year anniversary service and a Pastor stopped and began to pray for someone with a female medical issue. No one knew. Not a soul knew what we were battling. He called me forward and began to pray over me.
And here I sit. On my couch, sitting next to my 3 year old son. A child that took 5 years to get. Not a lot of people know that part of our story. But I love that I got to spend some time looking in my rearview this morning to see where God had brought me. I hope that you are able to look in your rearview this morning and see where God has brought you and see where He is taking you.
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