When you can't get up

Hey everyone. It's been a while. Something that has been overwhelming my heart the last few days has been this subject. My alarm went off this morning to get Justin up for work and I told him I didn't want to get up. I didn't want to face the day. The last few weeks have been a storm of feces. Everything that could have hit, has hit. And then some. In all area's of our life, we have been rocked. As I was laying in bed, denying the fact that I HAD to get up, God threw me a small life jacket. Which, like always, was followed with suck it up buttercup.

I don't want to. I just flat out DON'T WANT TO! Anything. I don't want to go to work. I don't want to fight anymore. I don't want to make hard decisions that can alter my life and the lives of others. I don't want to keep encouraging people. I don't want to get dressed for work. I don't want to take care of the house and I don't want to be an adult. I don't want to be strong anymore. Here's the reality, even though I don't want to LIFE STILL GOES ON!

Same goes for my Christian walk. You know if I actually woke up this morning and decided that I wasn't going to be who God had made me to be what would that do? Some might think nothing. Oh it's just one less person in the world doing God's work. I can take the day off. Let me challenge you with a thought. Did Jesus take a day off? Did Jesus say, "Oh I want to do what I want to do today! I'm not going to love people today? Ummmm nope. We have to be about our FATHERS business.

My life now has to be focused on the advancement of the kingdom of God. Spreading the gospel. Reaching the lost souls. Loving on hurt people. Because that's our calling. When our focus becomes about me me me, we lose sight of the real goal. Our Pastor told me from the minute Justin and I started working with the church that it wasn't his church, it was God's church. And God's will would be done.

I have had to keep Christ at the center of everything since. Because if it wasn't in God's plan for me, I had to back away. Today I have to choose to keep Christ at the center. Some days it's harder than others. I have to cling to Proverbs 3:6 today.

In all your ways acknowledge him, and He shall direct your path.

The storm doesn't stop just because you are overwhelmed. But it does run out of rain eventually.