Fight. Give Up. Be Still.

I don't believe in the word coincidence. I believe that everything happens for a reason. Yesterday while I was talking to God He pushed me in a different direction than I had been going. I'm a Spiritual Warrior. Hands down. I fight. But I know that battle isn't against flesh and blood, even though it is hard sometimes, it's against principalities of darkness. I know that my battles are fought in the heavens. All of that is a conversation I can have with you another time. Recently I have been in fight mode. Fasting. Praying. Seeking help from God over situations I had no control over. It's been hard.

Yesterday God asked me what Satan's agenda was. I sat for a moment and said well to steal, kill, and destroy. Then I laughed and said, "To divide and devour." When I get into fight mode sometimes I feel like I have to pick sides. Or pick one person to follow. I think that's where the damage comes in with a church. The division of the body. We're called to be in unity with one another. And because of that, I end up wanting to give up. I don't want to fight anymore because let's face it, separation seems to be the only way out.

I've been here.  God hit me about that yesterday too. Even though I want to give up, I'm called NOT to stop praying. Prayer is powerful. We never called to stop praying for a situation or a person who needs prayer. I cried out to God and literally said I give up, because I can't keep doing this. He brought a verse to mind. Psalm 46:10. "BE STILL AND KNOW THAT I AM GOD."

This isn't the whole verse though. We quote this portion over and over and over. I hate hearing this because Deborah then has to take a timeout. I have to BE STILL. I have to let God be God. I have to step away, continue praying, but BE STILL. "I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth." To me, that's a reminder. God's will WILL be done. I don't have to worry. That doesn't mean that I don't get to give up and not fight. It means that God is God and He is in control. My stress, anxiety, worry, doubt, fear, everything is taken care of.

Why did I start this blog by talking about coincidences? Well, as I opened my youversion app last night and started reading my devotion and it said BE STILL AND KNOW THAT I AM GOD. And in moments like that, I just have to know that God is good and He shall win. The battle isn't mine. I don't have to take sides. I just have to be obedient to God's direction for MY life and everything will fall into place. Have a great day!