Finally, God pushed me to the breaking point. I let it fly. I started listed things off. I mean detailed. I wanted to be married by a certain time, I wanted to have my kids by the age of 30. I mean it was partly out of frustration. Partly out of an attitude of, "You asked for it." Little did I know.
I was 19 at the time. God the showed me something VERY important. I remember it to this day. A vibrant visual. One I told Justin when we were dating. Things changed from that moment on. Here I am, almost 10 years later, and God is doing it again. But through people this time. I have a group of people, all who love me, asking me what I want? What is it I want to do? I keep answering, "I don't know."
Maybe it's because I don't want to openly admit to myself that I don't want to live a life of complancency. I don't want to just survive, I want to thrive. I think about all that's happened in the past year of Justin and I's life. There is so much that has changed. We had a baby. HUGE life altering moment. Things aren't the same now that they were a year ago. Much less 10 years ago.
Elevation is in their revival season. It's a time of renewal. A time of change. I love that they set a time for revival and expect God to move. Pastor Steven has been talking about See what God can do through you. Now I'm wondering what God could do from here on out. What could I do? What is God wanting for me to do?
Amazingly... He's showing me that the question isn't What is God wanting for me to do? But in this season it's What do you want to do? What are the desires of my heart? Where are my motives? Apparently I have some work to do. What about you?
What is God doing through you?
What is God showing you that you need to do?
What are the desires of your heart? - Do they line up with God's plans?
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