Burden

We have been assisting in a church plant in our area. It's probably been my biggest ESOAL (emotionally stretching opportunity of a lifetime) thus far. Second to raising Joseph that's for sure. During this whole thing, we've endured a lot of things that have mold/shape us more. It's been worth it, don't get me wrong. Anything that makes you into a better person usually tends to be hard on you.

Last night Pastor discussed burdens. I couldn't catch everything because I'm trying to learn some multimedia things. It's be a sturggle in itself. I looked up what burden meant and got a different perspective of the word. "A load, especially a heavy one." 

Cast thy burdens upon the LORD, and He shall sustain thee; He shall never the righteous to be moved. - Psalms 55:22

We have this cucumber patch. Litterally a patch. Our 4 plants turned into taking over our little garden area. We have hundreds of blooms on it but haven't seen any cucumbers. I was so finished with the whole garden life that I quit watering it and just wanted it to die. Then we went though an entire week or 2 of rain. I joked that God was watering my cucumbers because I wasn't. To my surprise, we actually started seeing cucumbers produce from the vines. 

I sat down with the 6 cucumbers in my hand and just laughed. I said, "God I don't understand what the world is going on here. I was tired of taking care of them and just wanted them to die."

God showed me something I didn't even think about. Matthew 6:26 talks about how God doesn't let the birds go hungry and we are more important than the birds. So God will always provide for us. It's no secret that I stress WAY to much over finances and where we are going to get the money for everything. Even if things are okay, I still stress. God took Psalms 55:22, Matthew 6:26, and Pastors message from last night and blew my mind.

I need to start casting my burdens on God because He will take care of me. I need to have more faith and trust in Him. Even in the midst of something that I didn't see as a burden God showed me that He would provide. He made it rain to make food grow from these bloom filled cucumbers plants that I had. He showed me that He would make a way when I saw no way. 

He also is showing me that we need to see the potential in people and circumstances instead of writting them off as a lost cause. I have a lot of people who I have written off as a lost cause and someone who just wouldn't be worth my time. God is showing me otherwise.