From Routine to Ruin.

A lot of times in our lives we get into routines. Get up, go to the bathroom, get dressed, get a cup of coffee, eat breakfast, brush teeth, drive to work, the day goes on and on. We do it day in and day out. Lots of people live by routine and if something gets out of line, they lose it. That was me. I would get up at the same time, every day. Get to work. Do my job. Come home, nap. Then get dinner ready. Having Joseph has wrecked that, and I started to lose it.

I couldn't deal with things being unplanned. Random hours of the night waking up to eat. Random hours of sleep. I couldn't handle it. I was losing myself. I was making a mountain out of a molehill. It wasn't until yesterday that I discovered that routine = ruin. Because routine = complacency.

Routine = Complacency

Complacency = Ruin

BUT
Chaos = Change

Having a child will wreck all levels of schedules and routines. You know that everything is unexpected. Everything is unplanned. Everything is a 'fly by the seat of your pants.' You could be dressing to go to a party and pick up your child to give them a kiss and boom instant vomit. You are covered, the baby is covered. And now you are changing the kid and cleaning them up. Giving them a bath. Now, you are an hour late and decide not to go. People who don't have kids don't understand the life lived in uncertainty. 

Over the past year I have noticed that I have had a terrible routine that has caused a lot of 'death' of self. I've become so complacent in just the simple routine. I can't seem to deal with the chaos because I'm not used to it. When in reality it's because I don't like change. I don't like things being off. I like comfort. I like normalcy. But where is the growth in that?

When you go to school, you despise the learning process. Testing. Reading. Memorizing. Being pushed to do things you don't understand. Looking back, are you thankful that it happened? All the things you learned? And now do you wish that you had paid more attention? Embraced it a little more? I know I do. I wish I had fully embraced the chaos of learning. Now 10 years later, I'm learning things that I should have remembered from school.

Embrace the chaos. Embrace a life filled with chaos and change. Don't become complacent by routine and ruin the great things that could be happening to you!! Take a chance with life and go full throttle!! Take the plunge. ENJOY LIFE TO THE FULLEST.