Fear

I have to say that I don't particularly like the movie Inside Out (Insert gasps here). But with watching children they love it. Naturally, I get a fill of movies that I don't like. As many times as I have watched the movie, I've started watching different characters. I have to say that I relate to Fear the most. But my favorite character is Sadness.

I'm going to be completely naked for a second. I've been trying to figure out what my dreams are. Things that I wanted to do with my life. I sat down with Justin and asked him what his dreams were because I had no idea what I wanted to do with my life anymore. After he told me about what his goals were for the year and the long term goals, I sat back and tried to think for myself what I really wanted to do.

Once I finally came to the conclusion of what I wanted to do, I wrote it down. For one whole day, I was confident. For one whole day, I was excited about where life was going to take me. Then fear hit. Fear that my past mistakes would come back to ruin everything. I was flooded with doubt, fear, and anxiety. What if I attempted this thing and it was shattered. Satan started playing all the things from my past over and over and over.

I literally fought with God and told him that I was done. I didn't care what he had planned for my life anymore. I was just going to be completely submissive to my husbands goals and aspirations for his life and not be my own person. I would do whatever Justin wanted to do and be a wife and mom. I was going to be complacent. I would never be a strong-spirited person again.

What kind of life is that? Being dormant in your own body, never having goals or aspirations for your life? Let me tell you what it is. MISERY! God placed your destiny inside you for a reason. He hand selected you for something. We don't live by the spirit of fear. Thank you Jesus lingo 101. Joyce Meyers put it the BEST way, I think.

She talks about the fruits of the spirit. Love, Joy, Peace, Patience, Gentleness, Faithfulness, Kindness, Goodness, and Self-Control. She explains that when we become born again, we posses these things. We have people that tell us that we should pray for more of those things but what we fail to realize is that we already have them. We just have to tap into them.

For me, fear is a big reason I don't go through with a lot of things. Maybe yours is guilt, fear, hatred, lack of dedication, or anxiety. These things are placed in us because of the world. We live in a world where nothing is supposed to go right or nothing is going to be good. Think about the things that are holding you back. I've said it before, and I'll say it again. YOU are the only thing holding you back. YOU put limitations on yourself.

Let me make a clarifying statement here. I'm NOT saying that Anxiety isn't a real thing. I'm not saying that depression isn't a real thing. I have bad anxiety and tend to shut down from time to time. Today even! Justin and I went to the store to purchase some items that were necessary or someone would have been killed in our house. I've had depression before. I have a friend who has had, battled, and overcome postpartum anxiety. I freaked out the WHOLE way there and BACK. It was unnecessary for me to act that way but I couldn't control my freak out because I chose to continue to freak out.

 Where we get tangled up is how we deal with those things. Do we feed them or speak God's word over those situations and claim victory over them? Every situation is 10% what happens and 90% how you respond to it. Take those words into consideration next time you face these things.