Discouragement

Sometimes we have this grand plan and we get so excited about it. We work ourself up. We present this beautiful thing to others. And boom. They don’t see it the same way. We’re completely shattered. We had these high hopes. We had these great expectations just to have them crumble in front of us.

These things happen. What’s hard is when we take them personally. We take them as a personal stab at our creativity or at who we are. Yesterday I sat in my best friend’s office and reminded myself that it’s not me. I tend to take things way too personally.

An empty vase with no names for auditions. A student not returning for the school year. No thank you when I busted my tail working on a project. It’s not personal. But for some reason my brain turns it that way. 

While I was getting dressed I talked to God about it. You see, my Christmas program is my baby. I have worked so hard on it for many years and this year I have one piece that I was very excited about. For it to work, I have to have certain parts. If there are no auditions, there are no more pieces to the puzzle. This means that piece won't be added. God reminded me of the scripture that I have for this week.

"Commit to the Lord whatever you do, and HE will establish your plans" Proverbs 16:3

It's not that that part of the program isn't important. Maybe it looks different. Maybe I'm supposed to teach it differently. Maybe I'm supposed to teach other kids this year. Maybe that group looks differently. Maybe I need to step back and let God have more input in that situation. I need to let GOD lead for this circumstance. There was more but I'll leave that out just in case one of my students gets a hold of this.

We..... and when I say we I mean I.... I spend so much time trying to micromanage the small things of a process that I forget that God has a plan for it all along. If I just step back and allow Him to do all the heavy lifting my stress level wouldn't exist. I need to spend more time working on that. Which was a much needed wake up call this morning as I stressed myself out over these auditions today. 

Whatever decision you are looking towards. Whatever you are facing. Remember that God knows the end result. His was and His plan is greater than anything we could figure out on our own. Why don't you let HIM work out the details and we just follow the path that HE has prepared. Do more listening and less speaking.... Ouch, wasn't that last weeks verse?