30x30

This morning after I got Justin off to work I decided to count how many weeks it was until my birthday. This year is the big 30. I decided to do a stupid 30 before 30 list. You know, those list that people make that usually don't get accomplished. That would be me. I only got to 20 before I fell back to sleep but I got that far.

I used to do lists at the beginning of every year. This year was the first year I didn't do that. It almost left an empty void in my life because I have done them for more than 7 years. This year I decided to say "Lord have your way." Which, for me, is hard. I'm a control freak. Yes. Completely insane control freak. I would call it organized chaos but it works for me. Everything has it's place. If something goes slightly out of whack in the media department on a Sunday morning, I'm in panic mode.

Yesterday, right before the service, the laptop was moved to be plugged up. The HDMI cord wiggled every so slightly and throw the presentation off. I panicked. The people around me tried to calm me down. What they saw as a small simple fix turned my whole stomach upside down. What they didn't know is that the HDMI splitter was on its last leg. The week before I spent 30 minutes figuring out what was going on with it. I still don't know. After praying and walking through the trouble shooting steps it was fixed.

I don't like that I'm like that. It didn't help that I was super tired. BUT it's okay. Where am I going with all this. One of the things I wrote down is to seek Gods will for each day. Not just for my life. Just to wake up daily and say, God what is your will for this day? Who am I to reach? What am I to do? It's not as easy as one might think. This about this.

Noah was just walking along his morning and BOOM, God told him to build an ark. I mean. They had never experienced rain. They had never seen it. It would be like preparing for a hurricane in South Dakota. Kinda crazy. Noah took that direction and did it. I wasn't there so I can't say that Noah had doubts. But I know that I would. The first time I experienced an earthquake was a few years ago. I didn't know what it was or what to expect. Phone lines were shut down because everyone was calling each other to figure out what was up. It would be like waking up that morning and God saying, "Hey, Deb, you're going to experience an earthquake today."

I know your birthday might not be in 30 weeks. Or you might not be turning 30 this year. But I DO want you to be challenged to face each day with the question, "God what is your will for my life today?" You'll be surprised how your calling starts to be revealed while you are doing the Lords work daily. Have a wicked awesome first day of spring.