Being Silenced. Be Still.

The hardest words I've ever had to hear. Be still. Wait. Watch me work. Patience. I was speaking with a friend yesterday and I was talking with her on the subject of learning lessons. There was a situation that occurred recently in my life where I am having to learn to accept forgiveness and it's been a hard pill to swallow.

I responded to her question of how I was with, "Everything is a learning process. Some lessons just suck worse." And it's the truth. Just like some lessons you learn are harder than others, some truths about yourself are harder to swallow. Putting a mirror up to you face is awful because most to all of the time you don't like what you see.

It could be physical. It could be emotionally. It could be part of your personality. Like I had mentioned, I have gone through a situation that has made me take a hard look at myself and do some real work on who I am. What started in September of last year has grown to the hardest lesson I've ever had to learn.

I decided that I wanted to be a better person for my son. I wanted to be a good example of a Godly woman and wife. All of which has lead me to the point where I am today. I'm not a good example at all. I'm human. Right now, to Joseph, I'm the provider of the food and changer of the butt. Hopefully, in time, through lots of brokenness and humility I will be able to build an example of a Godly wife. I've become very silent and have been spending a lot of time being still. If you know me that's really hard. REALLY HARD!

Luke 1 talks about the birth of John the Baptist. In verse 11 the angel appeared to Zechariah and told him that he was going to having a son and to call him John. We see the same thing happening to Mary before the birth of Jesus. Gabriel told Zechariah that he was going to have a son. Zechariah didn't believe him because they were both, him and his wife, were very old in age. Another story that we see before with Abraham and Sarah. Zechariah was silenced until John was born and it came time to name him. He was silenced because of his disbelief. Talk about a face slapper.

A huge influence on my life, Rod Parsley, recently went under a huge battle with Throat Cancer. As a pastor, he could be potentially losing the one thing that God used through him to advance against the gates of Hell and expand the kingdom of God. Could this be a gift or a devastating blow from the enemy. From biblical knowledge we know that whatever Satan uses for bad, God will turn to good.

Sometimes we just have to be obedient enough to shut our mouths and take time watch God work. Sometimes we are silenced because we have nothing we can say. We just have to be still. No matter what situation you are going through make sure you take some time, if asked to, and be still. Sit in the silence, Let your silence be a learning process. What Satan can be using to rip you apart could be God changing your life for the better.